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My year spent as a MacroTransient at FoAM is now over. One year of not being a student, not being an employee, not being unemployed. One year with no expectations. One year of incredibly pure freedom of action, movements and thought. One year to re-design a lifestyle, figure out tough life choices, defining a personal and professional identity. One year of careful help from FoAM to try to answer that crazy questions: "What do I want to do with my life ?" | My year spent as a MacroTransient at FoAM is now over. One year of not being a student, not being an employee, not being unemployed. One year with no expectations. One year of incredibly pure freedom of action, movements and thought. One year to re-design a lifestyle, figure out tough life choices, defining a personal and professional identity. One year of careful help from FoAM to try to answer that crazy questions: "What do I want to do with my life ?" | ||
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Below is an attempt to summarize this crazy year, and maybe give you a hint of how this feels, or even give you the will to go through the same difficult but rewarding process. | Below is an attempt to summarize this crazy year, and maybe give you a hint of how this feels, or even give you the will to go through the same difficult but rewarding process. | ||
- | ===Before this year=== | + | ====Before this year==== |
- | ===Starting: Feeling Unbalanced & === | + | ====Winter - Decelerating==== |
- | === | + | After a very intense year, and a quite active travelling period in the autumn, the first thing I needed to do was to decelerate. A quite tricky process when all your standards tell you that action is the only valuable thing. I had to face the emptyness of some days, during which tiredness & procrastination were the only two words coming to my mind to define them. Anyway, a few important deep processes took place during the first months of this transiency. |
+ | ===Reconnecting=== | ||
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+ | One of the first actions I took when I arrived in Brussels was to sign up to an Aikido class. | ||
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+ | After more than seven years of focusing on mind development, | ||
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+ | Why Aikido to reconnect body and mind ? One of the things I also needed to start working on was my recurring panic whenever I was confronting with any somewhat violent confrontation. I therefore wanted to practice a martial art, as I though it would help me both reconnect body mind and help me deal better with violent situations. Aikido being on of the closests martial art to the " | ||
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+ | As expected, it has been far from easy. For the first time since years, I felt completely dumb at something, like if I had no grasp on how to learn gestures. I started to learn three months after most of the students, and constantly felt holding them back with my stupid ununderstanding. Moreover, the (fake) violent situations were there, and being put to the ground more than fifty times in two hours, having to get back on my feet everytime, was far from easy in a setting were I already felt dumb. Self-esteem was having a hard time. | ||
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+ | After a year of practice, I can feel some progress. I feel more body conscious, and I feel like I am a bit less sensitive in slightly violent situations. New students have arrived in the dojo, and they helped me find out I had learned something. I also decided to go to the training max once a week, to dilute the potential bad feelings. I feel I can progress more easily now, and I am willing to continue. | ||
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+ | ===Displaying=== | ||
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+ | In December, I gathered all my notebooks since June 2012, when the Transiency had been proposed to me. I had carefully noted down since then every single thing I wanted to do once I would be a resident at FoAM. | ||
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+ | So I took a whole load of post-its, and wrote down every single activity and posted them on the wall, attempting to sort them out. | ||
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+ | After two weeks of scrutinous transcription, | ||
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+ | ===Loving=== | ||
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+ | Hopefully, some sweetness was here in the middle of the two hard challenges I just mentionned. | ||
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+ | Amélie and I had been together for a few months at the beginning of this Transiency. Thanks to this new period opening in my life, we now had breakfast together every morning. We also spent the Aikido-free (on my side) and teaching-free (on her side) nights together, often doing nothing else than having a tasty (vegetarian) lunch together, and chatting. | ||
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+ | Compared to the lifestyle I had in Paris, in which I would pile up conferences, | ||
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+ | ===Delaying=== | ||
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+ | In January, I was lucky enough to receive a job offer from my Master Thesis Supervisor. He was (and is) starting a small company on the topic of artificial closed-ecosystems, | ||
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+ | He proposed me to join in as the first employee of the structure, starting from March. | ||
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+ | Even though the Transiency work had not been easy so far, I could not think about stoppping so early. I had a lot of deep personal work to do, probably way more that what I envisioned in the first place, and I would definitely not even be started with most of it by March. I had to say now. | ||
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+ | I understood in this experience how hard it can be to say no to an offer when you do not know exactly how to phrase what you would do instead, and you can only intuitively feel it is very important. | ||
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+ | Hopefully, my Master Thesis Supervisor did not take it the wrong way, and offered me the job again last August. But more on that later. | ||
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+ | ===Cooking=== | ||
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+ | FoAM Brussels being a temple of cooking, I spent some time trying [[http:// | ||
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+ | In addition to reducing my reliance on industrial food, it also helped me decelerating & reconnecting body & mind. | ||
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+ | ===Teaching=== | ||
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+ | In September 2013, [[http:// | ||
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+ | I felt very honored to be proposed to co-teach in such an environment, | ||
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+ | I was confronted their with highly creative students, and a complete new way of teaching. This way of teaching is way more personal, intricated with the personality & life trajectories of these students. | ||
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+ | I wish I could bring part of this way of teaching to my engineering school, as I think it would help have engineers concerned with society, conscious of their personal issues, and more able to question the myths and taboos of the society they live in. | ||
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+ | ===Gardening=== | ||
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+ | One of the initial objectives of this year was also to learn practical know-hows to include more DIY in my daily life. | ||
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+ | FoAM Brussels gave me a "carte blanche" | ||
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+ | This experiment in itself gave me an idea of how hard it is to rely on my own food production, and how devoted and sedentary I had to be. Which made me re-think completely the self-sufficient hypothesis. | ||
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+ | ====Spring - Seeding==== | ||
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+ | After decelerating, | ||
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+ | ===Reading=== | ||
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+ | I needed to feel inspired, and learn from others' | ||
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+ | The Moneyless Man is about the experiment Mark Boyle performed over one year. He tried to live without earning, spending or using any money during one year. It is great book, easy to read, and full of tips on how to reduce your reliance on a destructive monetary economy. However, I could not find any answers to the two most pressing questions I had with moneyless lifestyle: | ||
+ | * How to get healed in case of a big incident ? Mark Boyle relied on the rights he precently acquired to the British Security system. However, the book gives hints on how to self-heal yourself with plants, and how mutual aid provides you help when you deeply need it. | ||
+ | * What happens to your social life with less coherent people ? Mark Boyle says that it was one of the most difficult aspect of his experiment. He could not spend time with friends in money-based social activities, which is OK for one year, but for more ? Does it make sense to transform your social network for the sake of coherence ? | ||
+ | I think it is important for me to be able to meet people which opinions are far away from mines, to understand better their viewpoints and what builds the difference between me and them. I have the feeling that if I live such a life, I will cut myself out of such opportunities. | ||
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+ | The Four Hour Workweek is a book about entrepreneurship. This world has always interested me, as I like the strength and perseverance of people getting involved in the creation of a company. However, I always felt distant from them in the sense that I am not attracted by the idea of devoting all my time to one single project, thereby risking to lose everything in case of failure. | ||
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+ | This book gave me a quite uncommon answer. What if your company was designed to bring you money back to do whatever you want to do ? Even though I do not agree with all the strategies proposed in this book, I like the idea of designing your income source so that you can maximize your freedom of lifestyle - and not necessarily try to merge both. It was a very pleasant, inspiring and thought-provoking read. | ||
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+ | The full reading list of this year is available [[http:// | ||
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+ | ===Traveling=== | ||
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+ | One of the things I disliked with my studying & working lifestyles was the forced sedentarity induced by the fact of having to follow courses / having to work in a give place. However, my initial hypothesis was to become self-sufficient, | ||
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+ | It was one of the conclusions of this Transiency: I prefer to travel than to garden. As I discovered this in April, I traveled a lot ever since. | ||
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+ | The very first important trip of this year was to Slovenia, a place where Amélie lived for a couple of years. After visiting Ljubljana and some very nice friends there, we moved to the countryside to spend some time at [[http:// | ||
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+ | Rolling Hedgehog is a self-sufficiency experiment, led by Amélie' | ||
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+ | It was a wonderful stay, however I understood that I would not transform it into a lifstyle. I would love to introduce slices of several weeks of this lifestyle, but I would also like to be able to escape it, and see other people, other places, other parts of the world. | ||
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+ | The self-sufficiency hypothesis was dead. | ||
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+ | ===Being Coached=== | ||
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+ | Besides being actively followed by the FoAM Brussels' | ||
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+ | During six sessions, we tackled deeply rooted brakes which left me doubtful and/or discouraged. Through very precisely phrased and chirurgically-targeted questions, Vali helped me unravel deep nodes in order to constructively & effectively move forward. | ||
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+ | For instance, after six sessions, I was able to precisely phrase what I felt was my mission in life. I also learned practical ways to be more efficient in my work, especially with unpleasant tasks, and how to deal with emotionnally perturbing events. | ||
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+ | I think that this process was one of the two most effective ones in the whole Transiency. I feel like I am work - and do stuff in general - more effectively, | ||
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+ | And yes, I will talk about the second process later. | ||
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+ | ===Forecasting=== | ||
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+ | Between April and June, the FoAM Brussels Core Team guided me through the [[http:// | ||
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+ | At the end of the process, we obtained four scenarios representing extreme situations. Scenario narratives can be found here: | ||
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+ | Such scenarios can be used as a compass. Thanks to this work, I could better understand which of my decisions would guide me to one or the other futures. | ||
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+ | We also designed a masterplan of what to do from today on to reach the possible futures, which helped understand which actions I should start now in order to reach the future I want to implement. | ||
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+ | ===Meditating=== | ||
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+ | At our very first Transiency meeting, I was talking with Maja, Rasa & Nik about my issues of body-mind connection, and my focusing issues I was experiencing since the middle of my studies. At that time, Maja had advised me to go through the [[https:// | ||
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+ | It was worth the waiting. | ||
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+ | I remembered mentionning the quest for "inner peace" to Vali during our first session. This cycle was basically a course on how to find inner peace. With very simple meditation techniques inherited from buddhism, we would quiet, slowly but surely, whatever wind or storm troubling our souls. | ||
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+ | I felt more body conscious, and did recover most part of my focusing abilities. But I also managed way better with emotionnally perturbing events, increased my perseverance in unpleasant or tedious tasks, managed to get back to contemplation on a daily basis, and logically started to find beauty more frequently on my way. | ||
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+ | You may have guessed it: with coaching, going through this process was the most positively transformative experience I lived this year, and I cannot not stop being lyrical about it. | ||
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+ | ===Getting Inspired=== | ||
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+ | In May, I was invited by [[http:// | ||
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+ | On the picture on top of this section, you can see two people. The guy is a former graphic designer. After three months of work, he found out that working behind a screen was not his way. So he knocked at the nieghboring baker' | ||
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+ | And he is only one example of the amazing people I met at the College. And he is only one example of the amazing people I met this year in Totnes, Nantes, Marseille, Paris, Brest and so on. | ||
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+ | I want to keep meeting diverse people in the upcoming years. With diverse interests, diverse opinions, and amazing life trajectories. Because it is so pleasant & enriching, and it helps me so much re-shape my vision of the world. | ||
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+ | ====Summer - Experimenting==== | ||
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+ | ===Researching=== | ||
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+ | In June, my friend [[http:// | ||
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+ | We had a one-week long research workshop, during which we tried to build supercapacitors out of dead PC batteries. | ||
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+ | It was my first " | ||
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+ | However, reasearching with Paul was completely different. We had a very nice week, I learned tons of stuff, and even though we did not manage to have anything working as well as we wish it would, I felt it was very pleasant. | ||
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+ | I think that the combination of five weeks of mindfulness training helped me deal with the frustration inherent to research. But, also, having someone like Paul as a teammate for this project changed everything. We had very nice discussions, | ||
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+ | After this week, I was no longer sure I wanted to give up on " | ||
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+ | ===Connecting=== | ||
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+ | Strengthened by the experience with Paul, I headed towards Nantes, and the [[http:// | ||
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+ | This event aims at offering a temporary experimental space to researchers of all kinds, from writers to tailors, including programmers, | ||
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+ | During one week, we would meet every morning to discuss what were the ongoing projects, and then we would spend the day working on them. Every night there was a party. Wonderful week. | ||
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+ | I met tons of people from diverse communities, | ||
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+ | This event confirmed that the essence of what I want in this period of my life is: traveling, meeting people with diverse backgrounds & ideas, and doing stuff with them. | ||
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+ | ===Wandering=== | ||
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+ | I also spent some holidays with Amélie, and later in the summer with my family. During this period, I just spent time with people I like, contemplated many diverse and beautiful landscapes, walked, played games, and read a few serious books. | ||
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+ | During this period, I could feel the experiments and works of the past few months sediment deep inside, fermenting a little bit maybe, and starting to produce new flavors in my present and potential future life. | ||
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+ | Wandering is also very important. Spending some time far away from the daily routine, loosing some time in between, is vital. It seems that the new stuff I seeded earlier needed this stage for a healthy development. | ||
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+ | ====Autumn - Preparing==== | ||
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+ | After seeding, letting things develop, experimenting, | ||
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+ | ===Replicating=== | ||
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+ | When an experiment is performed once, it brings a few insights. But to confirm these insights, replication is needed. |